December 2019

Wait; What? Why? My heart is racing. My hands are trembling I am in shock, this can't be. What did I do? So I grabbed my phone and googled "How to know someone blocked you on WhatsApp."  There are a couple of indicators that you may be blocked https://faq.whatsapp.com › general: You can no longer see a contact's last seen or online in the chat window. Learn more here. You do not see updates to a contact's profile photo. Any messages sent to a contact who has blocked you will always show one check mark (message sent), and never show a second check mark (message delivered). Any calls you attempt to place will not go through. I say to myself, "Nah, this can't be right" So I called twice and left a message: Hey, I send you a birthday message on WhatsApp, and I didn't get a reply. Is everything ok?  No reply to that either. Whew! That hurt my soul. I can act like I am confused, that I did nothing wrong, that I didn't deserve this. But I have done a lot of shady things to her. To my childhood BFF, My cousin. We shared many experiences. When she was 7 and I 6, she had her mom call my mom and asked if I could come to the city and so we can play together, even though she had a street full of friends. My mom got me packed up and put me in a car with one of my uncles and off we went.  We got our tongues pierced at 15/16; even though you were a year older than I was, you pushed me to the front, and I got pierced first. We laughed, cried and experimented with alcohol at a young age together. I looked up to you. Maybe way too much because you were also...