BlockedT

BlockedT

Wait; What? Why? My heart is racing. My hands are trembling I am in shock, this can’t be. What did I do? So I grabbed my phone and googled “How to know someone blocked you on WhatsApp.” 

There are a couple of indicators that you may be blocked https://faq.whatsapp.com › general:

You can no longer see a contact’s last seen or online in the chat window. Learn more here.

You do not see updates to a contact’s profile photo.

Any messages sent to a contact who has blocked you will always show one check mark (message sent), and never show a second check mark (message delivered).

Any calls you attempt to place will not go through.

I say to myself, “Nah, this can’t be right” So I called twice and left a message: Hey, I send you a birthday message on WhatsApp, and I didn’t get a reply. Is everything ok? 

No reply to that either.

Whew! That hurt my soul. I can act like I am confused, that I did nothing wrong, that I didn’t deserve this. But I have done a lot of shady things to her. To my childhood

BFF, My cousin. We shared many experiences. When she was 7 and I 6, she had her mom call my mom and asked if I could come to the city and so we can play together, even though she had a street full of friends. My mom got me packed up and put me in a car with one of my uncles and off we went. 

We got our tongues pierced at 15/16; even though you were a year older than I was, you pushed me to the front, and I got pierced first. We laughed, cried and experimented with alcohol at a young age together. I looked up to you. Maybe way too much because you were also just a girl a year older who was discovering herself. We talked about boys. You being Lighter in complexion and beauty in a colorist world grabbed their attention, leaving me in your shadow. Was I envious? I don’t know, I guess so. Maybe that explains why I dated two of your exes? Does it justify it? Nope. Nothing will ever justify my actions. We never talked about it, we swept it under the rug, and we kept being best friends. Why? We were raised in a family full of secrets and pain under the rug.

I should have apologized sooner, but I was too proud of saying that our bond was never broken by a boy. I am so sorry. You never deserved it. I am now an advocate of cutting toxicity off. Every time I’ve shared a quote on cutting people off. I never imagined I’d be on the receiving end of my own advice.

You’re on a spiritual journey now, and you were thinking of enrolling for your Ph.D., and I couldn’t be more proud of you. If blocking me is what you need to do for you to be happy and free, then I am glad you made that decision. I respect and admire you for that. We all need to do what we need to do to make ourselves happy. I will miss you, and I hope one day we can get to know each other as well as we did growing up. Maybe then I’ll do better by you.

 With Love Mickey

Elegant Me
mmkangombo@gmail.com
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